Snow DAy!

OMG. I was so happy when I found out we had a snow day. I didn't do anything though. I stayed in all day, and then had to work at 5:00. But James came over in the morning, and we spent to day together. We played Call of Duty on Xbox 360, the Nazi Zombies extra on it. It was pretty fun. But he kept getting mad because I kept getting killed lol. Work was EXTREMELY slow. I was standing around basically the whole time, bored. SChool tomorrow, so I gotta hit the sheets. L8er!

Sick Again.....

All this weekend, I've been sick. It started Friday, after school. I just started feeling extra tired and weird. Then, after work, I felt really horrible. When I woke up Saturday morning, omg, I was so sick. I was running a 101.1 fever. I NEVER run a fever. That was the first time I remember having a fever, It was so bad. I was so cold, but then a second later, I was burning up. I feel better today, I've been taking Tylenol and Dayquil and Nyquil. But like every 4 hours, when I have to take it again, I can feel the fever starting to come back. I don't think I'm gonna be in school tomorrow. I still have a bad cough and feel cold all the time. Plus, my throat feels like its on fire. I'm kinda stressed though, because I didn't do Mr.Lon's essay. I didn't have any time to do it during the week, because I had 2 essays of Kasper that needed to be finished, and then I had to work, Thursday and Friday. I planned to do it over the weekend, but I got sick. Its really stressful now. I have alot to worry about.....school, work, and my grandma is in the hospital. I go to school, come home, eat, then go to work (thts twice a week), and work until 9:00, come home and go to sleep. Every other night, I go to school, come home, eat dinner, then go to the hospital to see my grandma. Days where I don't do that, I spend time with James, or am home trying to catch up with school work. And people wonder why I have no social life lol.

Today's Teenage Women

When I look at other girls my age, it sometimes sickens me. I don't understand how women can walk around looking like straight up whores.

Why do women feel the need to have their breasts hanging out? Or to show as much skin as they possibly can? Girls want to look good, but what they need to understand is that you don't need to show everything to look "sexy". I think girls just want the attention from guys. But, why would you feel the need to dress like that? A man who looks at you, or calls you out on the street, all he's looking at is your body. They don't care about anything else about you. A guy will say whatever he can to get some ass, and thats the cold hard truth. The sad thing is, all these girls now its true, but they refuse to believe it. Today, the only way a woman can feel beautiful is when a man tells her she is. They won't see beauty in themselves, so they try hard to get other people to think so. They want people to tell them their pretty, so they can feel better about themselves. Is that an Independent Woman? Girls will say left and right, how independent they are, but constantly seek a man to tell them they look good, even if it's only to get in their pants. The majority of girls in this generation, are disgraceful.

All these young girls end up getting raped because of how they look. Little ass 10 year olds, walk around looking like sluts. No wonder they get kidnapped and raped and murdered. People are always blaming other people for these tragedys. Well, maybe if your kid didnt dress and act like a whore, that rapist wouldnt have felt the need to pursue her.

I am seriously grateful, that I was not raised around women, and have no sisters. I'll wear what I want, regardless of whether someone else likes it or not. I don't feel the need to show everything on my body to get men to notice me. I need no man to boost my confidence or make me feel good about myself. The strongest woman are the ones who can feel beautiful without a man telling her so, and the ones who can live their lives on their own, needing help from no one. That is an independent woman.

- Oh and I know all guys aren't like that, because my boyfriend certainly isn't. But majority of them are, especially the ones around our age(IMO).

Another Lyric Blogg.

Linkin Park-Leave Out All the Rest

I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what I made

I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are

I really like this song. It's kinda what Mr.Lon was talking about. How when we die, what will we leave behind? will we be forgotten?

Deleted Myspace.

Everyone who's had Myspace, who was my friend, will probably notice that mine is gone. I just got really tired of it. I never was really on it, or commented anyone. Myspace is just so overrated now, it seriously is. I've had so much drama through and over myspace, It's unbelievable. The only negative thing about deleting it, is that alot of people contacted me through it for school and stuff. But my soulution to that problem, is simple. My blog is just like Myspace. Anyone who needs to contact me abotu school work or anything, can just comment to my most recent blog, and I'll be able to post back.

So True.

What will happen will happen, and I won't waste the time I have above ground worrying. Misfortune always comes to those who wait. The trick is to find happiness in the brief gaps between disasters.

-Christopher Paolini (Brisingr)

The Life of a Working Student.

My future means alot to me. I don't understand how people can just cut school, or all together not come. How do these people expect to make it in their lives, without a highschool education? I get overwhelmed sometimes, because of going to school, and having a part time job. After school, all I want to do is go home and sleep, or just relax. But lots of times, I have work, or I have other things I need to do. But I know the importance of doing what I do. While all my friends are out there, having fun and being teenagers, I feel like I'm preparing for my adulthood. I don't feel like a teenager anymore, honestly.I feel like I've started my adult life already, and theres no turning back. Since I have a job now, I'm going to be expected to work. I was thinking, and this summer will be the last summer of our highschool lives. Next summer we'll be out of school, in the real world. This summer, while everyone is buggin out and having fun, I'll be stuck behind a register, dealing with asshole people all day long.My dad says its good for me. That I'm working and going to school at the same time. He says its giving me a head start into a life on my own. Not to mention, learing the value of a dollar. I feel like I'm growing up to fast. Everyone has such high expectations of me, and I'm afraid to let them down. I'm not expected to make adolescent mistakes. But sometimes, I wish I would.

Wondeful.

Did you ever look up to someone in a way, and have them let you down? Well, that's kind of what happened. I had so much respect for someone, and now, its like, I was so disappointed by that persons actions. If you don't have any expectations for people, then you can't get let down, I'll remember that from now on.

My little piece of bliss, that consists of Family

These past couple of days have been great. I've never been more happy, and at ease with my life. Everything has been so easy-going and laidback. I feel so alive, so rejuvenated. I got to hang out with my family and James. It's been great. On Tuesday, I took my 7 year old niece to the movies to see Bedtime Stories. She really enjoyed herself. I don't see her that much, so it was nice to spend some time with her. I try to see her as much as I can, but its hard because my brother and her mom, aren't together, so they have a special custody agreement. In summer, she lives with my brother, but during the school year, she lives with her mom. She calls me her favorite aunt, because I let her do whatever she wants. lol. I spoil her, and her brother, who is my godson. My niece loves to write me letters, and I like to chew on straws(lol). She wrote me this letter last spring. I thought it was cute.

Serendipity.......

Serendipity-an aptitude for making desirable discoveries by accident.

I like this word. It sounds cool. I think.