Stressin is a big BITCH!

I have been stressin so much these past few weeks. I've been experiencing emotions and actions that are not like myself. School always has me stressed out, I'm afraid I'm falling behind. I have gotten extremely lazy. For as long as I can remember, I have HATED people who were over sensative and overly dramatic about everything that goes on in their life. Like people who were with guys that they always fought with over the same stupid shit, all of the time. I try to make people see me as a very strong willed person. It has always been easy for me to hide what's bothering me, and make people think that nothing anyone says or does effects me. But recently, it's becoming harder and harder to hide it. Normal teenage drama doesn't have any effects on me, I feel like I'm to old and mature for little kid and teenage problems. But I'm dealing with teenage problems that I've never had to deal with before. I mean, I've been through so much drama with other teenagers in my life, that I know how to handle anything that comes at me. But these new things, they are so crazy. I find myself not being able to hold anything back. I never used to cry. I mean NEVER. Nothing could make me cry, and no one had ever seen me cry before. But now, I can cry. I don't like being able to cry, and when people see me cry, I feel ashamed. I feel weak and vunerable when people see me crying. I make it sound like I cry everyday, but thats not the case. I mean that, it's easier for me to become upset and emotional over every little thing. I guess it's just a phase....ughh I hate the word...I don't go through phases! But, yes, I believe it is so. Gosh I'm such a dumbass. I shouldn't let stupid things effect me......I WILL GET OVER IT! lol.  *Muahz*