My not so much, Best Friend.

I knew this girl, for over 5 years. We went to the same grade school, from kindergarden until the 8th grade. We met officialy in the 6th grade, and from then on, we were inseperable. We were perfectly balanced, and so much alike. She was my go-to person, my best friend. We never considered ourselves friends, in our eyes, we were family. sisters. In life, they say you only get a few great friends, and I know, she was one of them. The friends I have now, are nowhere compared to what she was to me. I told her everything. I mean everything. Every little thing about me, every embarassing,horrible,wonferful thing. I told her how I felt, my beliefs, my fears, my weaknesses. She was my exact match. People knew us in school, because of how close we were. They could actually see, how strong our friendship was. It wasn't the type of friendship that only existed in school. We were together after, on weekends. EVery single day.

In the 8th grade, her parents decided to move out of the city. They hated it here. That summer, she left me. She moved over an hour away, Downingtown. For awhile, we talked everyday. She hated it there. I would go to visit her on weekends, and stay for weeks at a time in the summer. It wasn't good, we both hated it. But we stayed close. Now, today. Were not the kind of friends we once were. We hardly speak to eachother, and when she comes to Philly, she never calls me. I see her maybe once every 2 or 3 months now. She knew me better than anyone, and now, she doesn't know me at all. I call her when I need her, and she too. Even though we dont talk much, we will still be there for eachother. But not like before.

I really miss the friendship her and I had. It's been really tough for me. I've had other friends, and I tried to confine in them, and tell them my secrets. But it always turned out for the worse. People who I thought I could trust, betrayed me. I used to be so different then I am now. But I don't trust anyone, anymore. People will confine in me, and I never have told anyone anything. But no one will give me the same courtesy, and I'm not willing to try. I live my life and face my problems alone, without the help and support of my friends. Friendship is an ever-changing thing. Nothing will last forever, I know that from experience. But I can wish, right?

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Standing alone in complete darkness

Wondering why my head is so thoughtless

I'm waiting around for someone to see

My beautiful side....

A part of me.